A special warfare veteran used his training to run a psychological operation on me — one disguised as a relationship. Documented abuse, blackmail, and mind control followed. This is the story of surviving it.

How I strategized my exit from DV by installing cameras, finding creative ways to break the behavior loops an abuser implanted, and anchoring myself in the care of people who reflected back who I really am.

How I began recognizing abuse through videos the abuser showed me, and how he used trance states, suggestion, and dissociation to condition my silence and compliance.

The break down of how cognitive and physical resets were used to fracture my thinking, destabilize me, and lay the groundwork for coercive control.

A record of all the times I tried to seek help from authorities, providers, support systems, and community organizations.

What Sean told me about his ex-wives—filtered through his manipulation, before I knew their actual behavior or truth.

Triangulation, abuse and neglect between Sean and Ghislane, and their son, how it escalated, and the events that led to me finally making him move out.

A raw, detailed account of the disturbing sexual behaviors Sean displayed, his perversions, manipulations, and the signs of potential child molestation. This post compiles patterns, quotes, and witnessed moments that point to cringy, potentially illegal behavior.

The onset of Sean’s narcissistic injury and the construction of a double life. As his control began to slip, he shifted into covert devaluation and image management; splitting realities, rewriting the narrative, and laying the groundwork for a prolonged campaign of reputational erasure and psychological destabilization.

The period after Sean was charged by the state, when, to avoid a plea of one day in jail, he launched a calculated psychological operation to eliminate me as a threat. He drugged me without my knowledge, raped me, and used dissociation triggers and coercive tactics to push me toward either retracting my statement or overdosing.

The positive and negative influences of outside players. How a religious community offered me stability, kindness, and the structure I needed to escape the coercive abuse. At the same time, I unravel the manipulative dynamic between Sean’s ex-wives: How appeared to purposefully provoke his mental instability and use their children as bait to draw him in just as he was to be awarded a class-action settlement check.